Heeeyyyyyyyyy everyone!
Uhhh, yeah, I'm still alive lol.
So first things first. I feel the need to apologize to all of you, especially the people who have messaged me, either on this forum or on Discord, during my long absence. I've been MIA for about 9 months at this point, and I have literally hundreds of piled up messages to get through. Obviously I won't be able to reply to everything, and for that I also apologize, but I'll try to get to as much as I can in time.
Assuming some of you were wondering why I suddenly disappeared for so long, here's the basic gist:
Without getting into the nitty gritty (because it's all rather personal and I doubt most of you care lol), the past 9 months have been rather rough for me. Well, actually, it's been rough for quite a bit longer than that, but things got really bad during the past year, and really intensified during the past few months. I've been struggling with juggling my academic, personal, and work lives with my responsibilities here on the wiki. There have also been a number of financial and health related concerns that have consumed the lives of myself and my family for a number of months now, and that took up most of my time and focus.
As most of you can probably gather, my mental health really wasn't in the best of places. I was under a lot of stress, and I couldn't really cope with most of it. And this brings me to why I left. This community can get pretty heated sometimes, toxic even. It is a debating forum after all. We all get heated and passionate, and that's perfectly fine. It's the nature of the beast, and there's nothing wrong with that. I guess I just got overly stressed during the last few months that I was around. All the toxicity and debates just got to me mentally I guess. The added responsibility of being a mod, and being almost singlehandedly responsible for a verse as massive as Naruto, didn't help my stress either.
So I guess at some point everything kinda compounded together, and I buckled mentally. I was so checked out, and I desperately needed a break.
Now, I'm sure most of you would've understood these concerns had I aired them out, and would've given me the break I needed had I asked. So my disappearing act is still somewhat unjustified, I understand that. So for that I apologize once again, especially to all my friends here. You guys deserved better.
So, am I back-back or what? Well, kinda. I'd be lying if I said all of my issues have been resolved. I still have a lot to work through, but I am feeling much better. I can't promise that I'll be as committed, consistent, and active as I once was, at least not right away, but I will be around more. I can definitely promise that I won't suddenly pull off a disappearing act out of the blue again. I'm still passionate about VS debating and indexing, so I'll eventually be fully committed again, but for the time being I guess you could consider me a part-timer or something.
As for my staff position, I'm not sure if it's still on the table or how these situations work exactly. However, assuming it is still on the table, I can't really take it back in good conscience at the moment because I will not be able to perform my duties consistently. I'd like to earn back my position whenever I am able to in the near-ish future.
With all of that being said, I'm sorry if I've rambled on for too long, but this is the long and short of my situation. I hope that helped clear things up.
Again, I'm sorry for everything, and I hope to become a part of this community once again.
Cheers everyone, have a good day.
