"I'm saying you at the time, not the you you threw up to push others away..." Palaria murmured
"No...." she shook her head and stared blankly into the sky.
"There were no tears, I felt... sorta empty at that time... Didn't know what happened, nor do I care why it happened,
it just did.
After that, I was taken to another place. The kids next to me were weird, they seem to... smile a lot, much like you and the others. Some have their parents throw them out, some are victims of rape and others... were like me.
But for some reason, I can't help but feel nothing...
So I lied. Made fake stuff about me and my personality... Didn't care if they found out, just wanna fit in the group is all..."
Her voice contained no emotion, as she was ever colder whilst Palaria embraced her lifeless body.
"Of course, I didn't really have enough money to go to school... So I went for drugs, hoping it would help fund the tuition and the little food. Had to eat even people's pukes just to get by, but... there was nothing I had to lose...
After seven years, I..... snuck into a college. Colorado, was it? Yeah, I think it was...
Given I can't just barge in without looking like a
masseuse, I gotta dress up as an old student. For that short time, it went sorta well but still didn't feel anything remarkable... Turns out, the student was a rapist victim, and he..."
Victoria remembered what happened
that night, something she couldn't say, as she remained silent for a short while.
"I did all sorts of "fun" after I graduated, had a lot of drinks, nightless stands, and constant partying...
But life just hits you without realizing it...
Cataclysm this, lost all the fake [friends] that, and here I am..."