"That's right, everything is you're fault." David's fist stopped in it's tracks as a voice rang throughout his head.
"You? A hero? Don't make me laugh. You can't even fix your personal relationships."
The black ooze that came off of the incomplete calamity began to cover David's fist, running up his arm.
"You're a mere human! You were born with no special talents, you were simply born to scrape away at the bottom like any normal background character. And look at what trying to play the hero has gotten you! Hundreds dead, you're life nigh-ruined."
It began to slowly pierce David's skin, running through his muscles and down his bones and through his veins, slowly beginning to corrupt his body, minute by minute, second by second.
"You don't have the ability to change. You're simply here to be food for you're own mistake. Give it up."
David's teeth gritted, his fist began to unclench as tears began to flow from his eyes. He was right and David knew it was right.
"......" David will faltered. for a brief moment, he considered letting the calamity kill him. Giving up and letting the being simply end his life. Freeing him from his struggles, freeing him from his responsibility, of the shambles that were his relationships, of the guilt that he would never be able to rid himself from.
"....maybe it was always my fate. To just be in the background. Maybe....maybe that was what I was meant to do." David thought.
"...maybe I was never...meant to be a hero...." David thought. He lacked the talent, He lacked the power, and he lacked the intelligence that his allies had. It would be so easy....to just...fade away. To leave his allies, to not go through any more struggles. To not get beaten up anymore trying to defend ideals that he had already disgraced. To die knowing that he would stop hurting the people he cared about.
"........"
David's mind began to drift.
"....But.....I don't want to die...." David muttered.
he recalled his first kiss with Masayoshi. the magical experience of kissing someone who would soon become the love of his life. Her face, her warm skin against his.
".....I would never....get to kiss her again. Never get to...talk to her again." David thought, tears flowing freely down his cheeks.
"...I would never be able to hold her in my arms...."
"... to love her...."
He recalled the time earlier today, When Gabriel had defended him against the words of Enkidu, how she had honestly believed he was changing...that he could change.
".....If I die....now. I'll never be able to prove to her.....prove that her efforts weren't useless....prove that I can change." David thought.
"...I'll never...learn anything from her again. Never hug her. Never laugh alongside her...." David thought.
"....Those two....how much would I hurt them...if I died here? all the times they've been there for me. All good memories I have with them....I would never be able to repay them. Never be able to change for them. To become the guy they deserve. Never be able to laugh, to cry, to experience all that life has to offer..."
David froze.
"....no...." David muttered. He couldn't die. He wouldn't die. Not here. Not now. not when he had so much he needed to do.
"NO" David shouted, his muscles clenched as he tried to push against the calamities corruption, desperately, wildly attempting to drive his fist forward.
"I...I'm a mere human. I'm stupid. I'm weak...I'm flawed...."
"But....I..I CAN'T DIE HERE" David yelled. A horse, undignified yell. More like a roar than a declaration
"...Dying....dying isn't an apology. and it isn't an escape! I....I'm gonna live....and I'm gonna change!" David yelled.
"I've made mistakes....I've ruined relationships with people I care deeply about, I've.....I've killed people..."
"BUT I AINT GONNA STOP MOVING FOWARD. I AINT GONNA THROW IN THE TOWEL." David screamed, his voice cracking, filed with emotion as he continued to fight against the beings corruption, trying desperately to move his fist closer, close enough to end his mistake once and for all.