"It's nothing complicated." Rory's purple eyes were filled with a shallow emptiness. As if she had realized a truth she didn't accept.
"Life is a meaningless tread to death."
It wasn't madness. It was despair. "No matter what you do, someday, you'll die anyway. I thought if I just powered through life, I could accept death, but..."
A twisted hope swirled within her mind. "I was arrogant to think I was a hero, a protagonist." But then a smile lit on her face.
"If I destroy the world... I can rebuild it from the ashes. That's what the Apoptosis is supposed to do, right? I won't just make a new world, it'll be a Perfect World!"
She'd always dreamed of a paradise. "In the new world, you'll never go hungry because there will always be food somewhere. In the new world, you'll never be jobless because you'll always be needed. In the new world, your efforts will be remembered by people, even if your just a grunt or a soldier.." A twisted hope.
"I won't just be killing everyone, I'll collect their souls... And- And I'll use them to help rebuild the world! I'll even talk it over with everybody in the multiverse so they don't have to be afraid!" She looked into the sky, her eyes twinkling.
"Guys, come with me! In my world, you won't be controlled by any Sinners or gods, just yourselves! If you just let me embrace you... I'm sure everything will be fine.. Once I'm strong enough, I promise it'll be completely painless for everybody, nobody will suffer."
She wasn't lying to gain their trust. This is what she genuinely felt.
"I don't want life to be meaningless."