I really feel the need to apologize myself, mostly for not being able to turn the other cheek and just ignore some things. After talking with Kep and friends on Discord I realized they were mostly right. Mean words on the internet are just that, sticks and stones.
At the end of the day, I'm sure none of the Sonic supporters discussed here have any ill intentions. I should've just ignored it. I know better, I'm an adult.
It's just I've been going through several episodes of depression, and seeing that comment from Void back in the RV 56 and the following drama triggered my PTSD of the moments I nearly took my own life during the 2017 drama-fest. I don't want to go back to being that person. I hate drama, I hate feeling angry all the time. It makes me sick. To protect myself I biasedly just followed whatever Medeus and Cal told me and they're not the type to lie, but I should've been able to judge the situation better. But I was so afraid of drama coming back into my life that I subconsciously was trying to get them all banned, despite saying I don't care if Void was banned or not.
It's not easy suffering from mental illness in Japan. Mental illness isn't treated very seriously here, so I haven't been able to get much professional help. Regardless, it's unacceptable to try and get someone banned when they have at least on site, have shapened up somewhat. Even though I was doing so subconsciously. I just want to make friends here. I don't want to have "beef" with anyone ever.
I realized that I still have a lot of growing up to do. My sister was right, numerical age doesn't automatically make you an adult. And your 20s is the perfect time to finish properly maturing into a true adult. So to Corgi, Oblivion, Shadow, User, and the rest, I sincerely apologize for my behavior. And to all the staff here + Agnaa and GojiBoy, I also apologize for being incapable of handling this situation better than I have. I should know better by now.