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Hello, VS Battles community. I'm sure most of the older members have been wondering for a long time why I have been absent for such an extended period, while the newer members have been wondering why the managing staff has a completely inactive bureaucrat.
My life for the past eight months has been...hard. I am a highly career-oriented person, and I suffered major setbacks around six months ago, some of which might take years to overcome. Life took twists and turns such that I lost contact with friends and family. I fell into a steep depression. My mental state progressively got worse, to the point where I was meticulously contemplating suicide as a worthwhile course of action. During those days, I was lucky enough that some new people came forward to support me, even when they didn't have to. They helped me overcome my mindset, and look ahead in life.
Which brings us to today, where I'm currently in the process of re-building my life and my career. Not only am I lacking time and energy for anything else, I am not in the right frame of mind to lead and the steer the course for the progress of this community. I have always taken the role of a bureaucrat seriously, and I cannot, should not, and will not lead a community that I am disconnected from. To that end, I would like to announce that, effective immediately, I will be stepping down from my position as a staff member.
Finally, I would like to clarify the purpose of this post; after all, I could have very well stepped down without posting anything. I did not do so to gain sympathy, or to help people understand; at this stage, neither of those things matter.
There is only one reason for this post, and that is to apologize. I took up responsibilities that I could not fulfill, I made promises that I could not keep; and for that, I am truly sorry. I took up a mantle to serve and help the community, yet I have not done that in a long time. Perhaps I even set a bad example as an inactive staff member, in which case I implore the community to not let my personal failures reflect on the capability and dedication of the VS Battles staff.
To my fellow staff members, both current and former, I am sorry for letting you dow. I thank you all for all your hard work, and as a soon-to-be former staff member, would like each and everyone of you to know that I will always understand and appreciate the scope and magnitude of your efforts.
To my fellow bureaucrats, I am sorry for not doing my part in helping you with this fantastic community. I have known each and every one of you quite well, and once again, I sincerely thank you for keeping this community alive and thriving. You are all wonderful, extremely capable people, and it is an honor to be considered a colleague of yours.
Lastly, I have a very personal apology for one person in particular, with whom it has been a pleasure to work with over the years. Antvasima, I am sorry for not being strong enough, old friend. Thank you for everything. You are the rock of this community, and it's been a great ride, from when you were my mentor to then my colleague, and always my friend.
Fun fact for those of you who don't know: I myself have been blocked from this community, albeit only once. And when I was, I got so frustrated and indignant at the unfair block that I decided to quit VS Battles wiki. Only, one person, who was a stranger at the time mind you, urged me to come back to this site, which then culminated into one of the best experiences of my life.
To the VS Battles wiki, and it's community: I wish you the very best, and I hope that you continue to remain the world's largest, warmest, and most accurate online fictional character combat analysis community. Thank you for everything, my time here has been one of the highlights of my life.
Goodbye :')
My life for the past eight months has been...hard. I am a highly career-oriented person, and I suffered major setbacks around six months ago, some of which might take years to overcome. Life took twists and turns such that I lost contact with friends and family. I fell into a steep depression. My mental state progressively got worse, to the point where I was meticulously contemplating suicide as a worthwhile course of action. During those days, I was lucky enough that some new people came forward to support me, even when they didn't have to. They helped me overcome my mindset, and look ahead in life.
Which brings us to today, where I'm currently in the process of re-building my life and my career. Not only am I lacking time and energy for anything else, I am not in the right frame of mind to lead and the steer the course for the progress of this community. I have always taken the role of a bureaucrat seriously, and I cannot, should not, and will not lead a community that I am disconnected from. To that end, I would like to announce that, effective immediately, I will be stepping down from my position as a staff member.
Finally, I would like to clarify the purpose of this post; after all, I could have very well stepped down without posting anything. I did not do so to gain sympathy, or to help people understand; at this stage, neither of those things matter.
There is only one reason for this post, and that is to apologize. I took up responsibilities that I could not fulfill, I made promises that I could not keep; and for that, I am truly sorry. I took up a mantle to serve and help the community, yet I have not done that in a long time. Perhaps I even set a bad example as an inactive staff member, in which case I implore the community to not let my personal failures reflect on the capability and dedication of the VS Battles staff.
To my fellow staff members, both current and former, I am sorry for letting you dow. I thank you all for all your hard work, and as a soon-to-be former staff member, would like each and everyone of you to know that I will always understand and appreciate the scope and magnitude of your efforts.
To my fellow bureaucrats, I am sorry for not doing my part in helping you with this fantastic community. I have known each and every one of you quite well, and once again, I sincerely thank you for keeping this community alive and thriving. You are all wonderful, extremely capable people, and it is an honor to be considered a colleague of yours.
Lastly, I have a very personal apology for one person in particular, with whom it has been a pleasure to work with over the years. Antvasima, I am sorry for not being strong enough, old friend. Thank you for everything. You are the rock of this community, and it's been a great ride, from when you were my mentor to then my colleague, and always my friend.
Fun fact for those of you who don't know: I myself have been blocked from this community, albeit only once. And when I was, I got so frustrated and indignant at the unfair block that I decided to quit VS Battles wiki. Only, one person, who was a stranger at the time mind you, urged me to come back to this site, which then culminated into one of the best experiences of my life.
To the VS Battles wiki, and it's community: I wish you the very best, and I hope that you continue to remain the world's largest, warmest, and most accurate online fictional character combat analysis community. Thank you for everything, my time here has been one of the highlights of my life.
Goodbye :')
