Can I defend myself for a second? Because i think everyone misunderstands my issue. It's not that I am angry at Matt because he disagrees with me, nor is it that I think he's stupid or anything, I am upset because whenever I bring up a controversial idea-- one that isn't an against the rules discussion to my knowledge-- staff close the threads without much discussion. It bothers me not that they disagree with me, but that sometimes members of the staff don't even give me a discussion before shutting me down. I don't think Kep is accurate when he says I insult people. If PaChi would restore what I said, it was clear that, at worse my comment about Matt hating Dragon Ball was a joke. I clarified as such. When I tried to speak to Ant about the staff's behavior, it was like nothing was done. So I feel like I can't even talk to the staff properly for assistance either.
They treat me like an annoying fly before I even get the chance to have a conversation on my ideas. This happened even with Ant before, where when I asked if we could change the Lightning speed rules to include explicit statements, he seemed to get upset and accused me of trying to make a special exception for Negi. I don't think I was being rude enough to get that reaction, as I recall at worst saying that the staff's behavior could be a little better, something he later acknowledged recently, and if I said it rudely, my apologies. But clearly it wasn't just Ant's problem.
I feel like certain members of the staff treat me ruder than others do, and it sucks that I can't even explain that to anyone. I couldn't care less if my ideas don't get submitted, I just want to at least have a discussion. Instead, someone else has to tell me that they didn't agree with my idea in another thread that they doubt it would get accepted, when that thread got closed before an actual sentence could be written. I don't care if it's a bad idea, I at least want calm, respectful, and generally honest discussion to be had over it in the first place before it's blown away.
I feel upset that I have to apologize to someone who had offended me, then get put on a warning list when I tried my best to keep calm and state my grievances properly and apologize for any misunderstanding to unintended disrespect. You can see it in what I wrote in the thread if PaChi restored it.
TL; DR: It's not that I am mad no one agrees with me. As bitter of a pill it is to swallow, I got plenty of juice for it, so I have little problems taking it. I just feel like if this wiki was a business, I'd call corporate-- they'd laugh at me and ignore my grievances. I'm not trying to play the victim or do ANYTHING underhanded. I am just trying to address my grievances with the site, and things that I, and as Ant acknowledges along with many people recognize that it's absurd. Ban me if you want. I just wanted to explain WHY I'm upset.