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Everyone, it has been a really wild ride since I joined this wiki. I lurked all summer of 2015 after I graduated, and as soon as I had built my computer, the time, and a serious interest, I joined here.
For years in high school, I really enjoyed the classic VS structure. Take two fictional characters, from the same verse or a different one entirely, and have them fight to see who would win. At that time, I nerded out like most of you to the more "scientific" and logic based reasoning behind it. No more fallacies or anything. Just facts that represent a character, and a there you have it, the formula that could entertain debaters forever.
Except, it didn't. Over the last year, while I was still a lowly Chat Moderator, I began to grow disinterested in the wiki. Not because of the drama, some of which I was personally invovled with. Not because of the times I felt it cut into my personal life. Hell, not even because I thought the idea of VS Battles or similar site was becoming boring. It all stopped entertaining me, because I wasn't me anymore.
If you go back a year, I wasn't even a Chat Mod. I was fresh out of Meme University from Joke Battles Wiki, made by one of my best friends I've ever made over the internet, Ryukama. At the time, I was working a poor paying job, surrounded by the worst towns in Chicago. I had the wiki as a break from reality. Both wikis, actually. I enjoyed the serious and logical side, as well as the side that poked fun and made absurdity of the whole idea in the first place.
Then I just grew into a different man. I had to start college. I was already doing martial arts. But I wasn't going anywhere. I was always planning, always expecting progression, instead of working for it. It takes an average of 6 months to earn an orange belt in my system. I did it in less than 4 months. While I was in college. And then things rushed by. The wiki drama, my anniversary, my birthday, Hop's YouTube channel, the holidays, I dropped my job, I left the dojo. I just finished my first semester of college and then I was broke.
Not money wise. As a person. Then, I just snapped.
I got power hungry. I started to do some really bad things in my free time. I fought people on the street for money, and I tried to be bigger than I was on the wiki. Talking down to people, abusing powers, acting higher class than I could ever work for. It was like that for a few months.
Then I ****** up. I hit my step-mom, and that was it. I left, I moved, changed cities, and almost completely abandoned everyone and everything. I only had my girlfriend, my money, and a few close friends and family members to talk to. I shut everyone out for a month. Until this spring. I was slowly sinking back into place. I found a new job listing for a very good company with high pay, in something I had skill and experience in. I won a lottery. My girlfriend and I rekindled it all. Then I got promoted to Discussion Moderator. All in all, things got better, even though I as a person was worse. I'll never understand karma.
I eventually got the job after 3 interviews and 2 months of training. And now, I'm on my way out of college, and I have one more year until things become easy again. But that did leave one thing behind. It's here, at this wiki. I had to go through pain and medicine for a month before I realized I didn't have time for this wiki or Discord, or Hangouts, or Fanfiction.net PMs. The YouTube channel was put on hold, for a long time. I couldn't sit at my computer anymore. I was working out all semester, doing college, a new job, hanging with my friends before we eventually have to cut ties. That period from last winter to this summer taught me something.
I am not invincible. In any way. I have feelings, I can get hurt, sickness and illness will effect me like anyone else on Earth. I have my faith and future ahead of me. A bright one that I can almost feel. That means I will have to leave in time. When I go back to college, and life demands my time, then I will officially leave this wiki. Forever. I'm retiring from wikia in whole actually. And I will not be coming back to Discord or Hangouts either. All I have left to do is make Hop's channel complete. At this point I know for a fact, this wiki, while I like to debate, I don't have the time for it. Everyone here I knew, is either retired, or has changed as a person, skulking in their own agendas.
I just changed as a person. Allot. And this wiki has too. This means we're going to have to go our seperate ways.
This is my last formal post before I leave next month. I retire today, but I'll still reply to messages on my wall and this thread. But in August, I leave everyone for good. There's more to life right now than what I can handle, and that means dropping weight so the bird can fly. I have had many fun times, and lots of good interactions with everyone here. But as much as I want to believe it hasn't changed, it has, and I can't hope it will go back. Many people have left here on better notes. But I was just here for a fun time, not a long time. And I hope the contributions I made have an impact on this wiki and the staff going forward, because my time here felt worthwhile.
I want to take this last part to thank everyone personally who has been here for me. As a staff member, as a friend, and as a fellow memer. There was no better community I have been a part of in my life, but as an adult with more responsiblity than I could ask for, I can't stay any longer. I will still upload videos to Hop's channel (link on my page) and to the Hop wiki.
I will write a list to those I want to address personally here:
Ryukama - Truly the person I trust and respect the most on the internet, and while I have 3 days of wiki seniority over him, there's no way in hell I could ever do as much as he did for this wiki. I don't have the interest or spirit for it. But he's also been a fantastic friend with great advice. A true shoulder to cry on, and a brilliantly calm debater. You deserve more than you have, and as a friend, I will always have your back.
Antvasima - To me, the wisest person on the wiki. I feel like past any paranoia and fear, there's a strong and persistant person who wants what's best for the wiki, its staff, visitors, and have fun while being the best. I deeply appreciate and respect all the chances and promotions you have given me. It was a personal honor.
Byakuya/Mico - My personal definition of good buddy. A blast to talk with, and always happy to be around. I never thought a stranger who liked video games could be such a good friend, and still be someone you can trust.
Until the time comes for me to have my final farewell, I truly don't have anything else to say about myself or the wiki and the staff. Adios, everyone. It's been a good time.
Charles, play my outro.
For years in high school, I really enjoyed the classic VS structure. Take two fictional characters, from the same verse or a different one entirely, and have them fight to see who would win. At that time, I nerded out like most of you to the more "scientific" and logic based reasoning behind it. No more fallacies or anything. Just facts that represent a character, and a there you have it, the formula that could entertain debaters forever.
Except, it didn't. Over the last year, while I was still a lowly Chat Moderator, I began to grow disinterested in the wiki. Not because of the drama, some of which I was personally invovled with. Not because of the times I felt it cut into my personal life. Hell, not even because I thought the idea of VS Battles or similar site was becoming boring. It all stopped entertaining me, because I wasn't me anymore.
If you go back a year, I wasn't even a Chat Mod. I was fresh out of Meme University from Joke Battles Wiki, made by one of my best friends I've ever made over the internet, Ryukama. At the time, I was working a poor paying job, surrounded by the worst towns in Chicago. I had the wiki as a break from reality. Both wikis, actually. I enjoyed the serious and logical side, as well as the side that poked fun and made absurdity of the whole idea in the first place.
Then I just grew into a different man. I had to start college. I was already doing martial arts. But I wasn't going anywhere. I was always planning, always expecting progression, instead of working for it. It takes an average of 6 months to earn an orange belt in my system. I did it in less than 4 months. While I was in college. And then things rushed by. The wiki drama, my anniversary, my birthday, Hop's YouTube channel, the holidays, I dropped my job, I left the dojo. I just finished my first semester of college and then I was broke.
Not money wise. As a person. Then, I just snapped.
I got power hungry. I started to do some really bad things in my free time. I fought people on the street for money, and I tried to be bigger than I was on the wiki. Talking down to people, abusing powers, acting higher class than I could ever work for. It was like that for a few months.
Then I ****** up. I hit my step-mom, and that was it. I left, I moved, changed cities, and almost completely abandoned everyone and everything. I only had my girlfriend, my money, and a few close friends and family members to talk to. I shut everyone out for a month. Until this spring. I was slowly sinking back into place. I found a new job listing for a very good company with high pay, in something I had skill and experience in. I won a lottery. My girlfriend and I rekindled it all. Then I got promoted to Discussion Moderator. All in all, things got better, even though I as a person was worse. I'll never understand karma.
I eventually got the job after 3 interviews and 2 months of training. And now, I'm on my way out of college, and I have one more year until things become easy again. But that did leave one thing behind. It's here, at this wiki. I had to go through pain and medicine for a month before I realized I didn't have time for this wiki or Discord, or Hangouts, or Fanfiction.net PMs. The YouTube channel was put on hold, for a long time. I couldn't sit at my computer anymore. I was working out all semester, doing college, a new job, hanging with my friends before we eventually have to cut ties. That period from last winter to this summer taught me something.
I am not invincible. In any way. I have feelings, I can get hurt, sickness and illness will effect me like anyone else on Earth. I have my faith and future ahead of me. A bright one that I can almost feel. That means I will have to leave in time. When I go back to college, and life demands my time, then I will officially leave this wiki. Forever. I'm retiring from wikia in whole actually. And I will not be coming back to Discord or Hangouts either. All I have left to do is make Hop's channel complete. At this point I know for a fact, this wiki, while I like to debate, I don't have the time for it. Everyone here I knew, is either retired, or has changed as a person, skulking in their own agendas.
I just changed as a person. Allot. And this wiki has too. This means we're going to have to go our seperate ways.
This is my last formal post before I leave next month. I retire today, but I'll still reply to messages on my wall and this thread. But in August, I leave everyone for good. There's more to life right now than what I can handle, and that means dropping weight so the bird can fly. I have had many fun times, and lots of good interactions with everyone here. But as much as I want to believe it hasn't changed, it has, and I can't hope it will go back. Many people have left here on better notes. But I was just here for a fun time, not a long time. And I hope the contributions I made have an impact on this wiki and the staff going forward, because my time here felt worthwhile.
I want to take this last part to thank everyone personally who has been here for me. As a staff member, as a friend, and as a fellow memer. There was no better community I have been a part of in my life, but as an adult with more responsiblity than I could ask for, I can't stay any longer. I will still upload videos to Hop's channel (link on my page) and to the Hop wiki.
I will write a list to those I want to address personally here:
Ryukama - Truly the person I trust and respect the most on the internet, and while I have 3 days of wiki seniority over him, there's no way in hell I could ever do as much as he did for this wiki. I don't have the interest or spirit for it. But he's also been a fantastic friend with great advice. A true shoulder to cry on, and a brilliantly calm debater. You deserve more than you have, and as a friend, I will always have your back.
Antvasima - To me, the wisest person on the wiki. I feel like past any paranoia and fear, there's a strong and persistant person who wants what's best for the wiki, its staff, visitors, and have fun while being the best. I deeply appreciate and respect all the chances and promotions you have given me. It was a personal honor.
Byakuya/Mico - My personal definition of good buddy. A blast to talk with, and always happy to be around. I never thought a stranger who liked video games could be such a good friend, and still be someone you can trust.
Until the time comes for me to have my final farewell, I truly don't have anything else to say about myself or the wiki and the staff. Adios, everyone. It's been a good time.
Charles, play my outro.
