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A place to just burst out frustration and blatantly curse out loud when you feel like it
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Why my pookie so angry
Opustelo ti dabogdaA place to just burst out frustration and blatantly curse out loud when you feel like it
Staff and members really might need this as a legitimate venting spot (both for online and real life troubles) and for support (finally my psychology and sociology education can come in handy lelelelel....)A place to just burst out frustration and blatantly curse out loud when you feel like it
OCD is really tough man, I'm also struggling with severe OCD, I can understand where you're coming from with it, if you ever need to chat, you can always send me a message. I hope it get's better for you!We Rant/Vent + Explanation for said rant incoming:
I have mild autism (Asperger's syndrome to be exact and I was diagnosed at 3 years old, though in future DSM and ICD might be reclassifying that under mild autism in the autism spectrum) and OCD (specifically OCD regarding a fear of me being deprived of my belongings or my memory, and this was since JC but in secondary school I had the stereotypical OCD regarding hygiene as well, so I assume even though I broke out of the hygiene OCD it still lingered around a bit dormantly until JC's A-levels and COVID hit simultaneously and made my OCD turn into its current form due to stress from the level of changes made in lifestyle and routine as well as relative physical isolation, and also as it turns out my autism through co-morbidity made me even more susceptible to various other mental conditions such as OCD as shown here
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Conditions_comorbid_to_autism_spectrum_disorders
For the past 4 years since A-levels I've been taking OCD sertraline medication to relieve the anxiety that comes with OCD panic attacks or otherwise paralysing/debilitating/incapacitating episodes of my OCD-related paranoia preventing me from otherwise behaving "normally" but those have their own side effects as all medications do:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sertraline#Side_effects.
Therapy may have worked for my previous form of OCD but it didn't work for this current one cause for OCD it relies on Exposure Response Prevention which just made me more agitated and anxious so as of now I'm just trying to improve it on my own (it was much worse during the direct aftermath of A-levels and COVID in 2020-2021 but as of end of 2021 to now it's slightly better)
I do also have episodes of melancholy (mild depression? dysthymia? not sure what to call it, it's basically chronic recurring random episodes of low mood and self esteem + alternating random nights of insomnia or hypersomnia + fatigue or low energy, eating changes (more or less), low self-esteem, feelings of hopelessness + withdrawing from stress and avoiding opportunities for failure) since I do feel at times (or at least have these thoughts at the back of my mind) that either I wouldn't be capable enough to help anyone else due to my conditions or that I'm inherently a burden despite wanting to help others instead of having to always rely on them and that any mistake or moment of inaction is proof of that (inferiority complex), or I'm living a sort of ingrained lie or self-fulfilling prophecy despite knowing that my conditions are real (impostor syndrome).
I want to help people, but for every mistake I make or every action I'm unable to take due to any form of restriction I have I start to dislike/doubt myself. I'm also scared and worried of being isolated, or judged negatively due to being unable to handle certain situations. And I do want to try to make everyone happy even if it's practically impossible, and I don't want to weigh other people down with my problems, but if I hurt myself, others still get hurt, so I'm essentially trapped.
I don't intend this to be some sort of guilt trip or emotional manipulation because I hate the idea of that too (and again, I don't want to burden people with issues that I face) but if I can't let it out coherently, without being judged, and if I keep it bottled in, I'm more or less self-sabotaging and it'd end up making me a hypocrite since I'd also be consequently sabotaging others unintentionally.
I mostly want people who I can trust to understand where I'm coming from and possibly help in some form while I provide any assistance to them that I'm capable of as well (mutual assistance/reciprocal altruism).
Thanks for the support, I know the OCD triggers and compulsions are different for different people but everyone's struggles are worth considering and supporting/aiding. I hope yours gets better too!OCD is really tough man, I'm also struggling with severe OCD, I can understand where you're coming from with it, if you ever need to chat, you can always send me a message. I hope it get's better for you!
IF WE RAGE, WE RAGE SO OTHERS WILL HAVE TO RAGE NO MORE!A place to just burst out frustration and blatantly curse out loud when you feel like it
**** EVERY SINGLE THING
DON'T CARE, F*** EVERYTHING. THE REAL MOOD. 3:16 AMERICA. OWO
**** EVERYTHING
toot (onomatopoeia for censoring words cause I don't like cursing except "damn", "bloody", "crap", "shoot", "frick", etc, the milder euphemisms and bowdlerising of stronger/more severe curse words).
Hope you continue to keep your job, but as for being rich....I almost got fired from my job yesterday
I want to be rich so I don’t have to get a job and spend a single day of work
Надам се да ће овај свет ускоро постати бољи (Nadam se da će ovaj svet uskoro postati bolji) (I hope this world will get better soon)Opustelo ti dabogda
Tisina breWhy does nothing go right in my miserable life ** everything and ** everyone I want to **** the world trade centre too
Wait may I ask, you ARE speaking Serbian right? (probably cause they're linguistically and geographically closely linked... but Serbian, Croatian and Romanian somehow were the results I had from Google's auto-detecting language translation welp)Tisina bre
1: I know this is a rage thread but now you're veering into a meltdown moment, also this is not the best place to make that sort of joke/statementWhy does nothing go right in my miserable life ** everything and everyone and ** the entire school system too
Yes i speak Serbian, but google translates is to croatian because we use similar almost same language but our country uses cyrillic instead of latinicWait may I ask, you ARE speaking Serbian right? (probably cause they're linguistically and geographically closely linked... but Serbian, Croatian and Romanian somehow were the results I had from Google's auto-detecting language translation welp)
(It translated as silence in Serbian and Romanian both)
If you find that joke of mine rather offensive then I genuinely apologise. I have edited out the World Trade Centre joke from my comment as well.1: I know this is a rage thread but now you're veering into a meltdown moment, also this is not the best place to make that sort of joke/statement
Heh, yeah. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm not sure of my life's source of happiness at this point.2: At the very least you lived this long and are hopefully capable of living longer+ hopefully there's still AT LEAST ONE source of happiness in your life (even if your situation is really bad, there's still the consideration that it can be either better or worse... and I'd rather not dwell on how it can be worse or what is the worst a being's life can fall to and I doubt that many people do either unless they're extreme pessimists or nihilists or misanthropes)
Welp, hope you can find a source at some point then, good luckIf you find that joke of mine rather offensive then I genuinely apologise. I have edited out the World Trade Centre joke from my comment as well.
Heh, yeah. Thanks for the encouragement. I'm not sure of my life's source of happiness at this point.