An appeal message from Vzearr:
"Hey Ant,
I want to clarify a few things, to sort of contest the decision that has already been made although I do understand it, but I want to address the concerns raised about my accountability and patterns of behavior, along with my medication and new/increased medication..
First, I accept that my conduct in recent incidents was inappropriate, regardless of intent or contributing factors. While mental health issues and medication complications help explain why those incidents occurred, they do not excuse the impact they had on others or on the community. I understand that responsibility for managing my behavior ultimately rests with me, and I want to add that I assure you it wont happen again.
My frustration mainly relies regarding HST fans, and the only real recurring pattern happens with HST. Agnaa bought up a thread on destruction values as "evidence" as to why I shouldn't even be trusted to be on the site at all, which I believe is unjustified, the reasoning as to why is because Bambu's behaviour in that thread as a bureaucrat was nothing short of condescending which staff members accepted, so me being angry and having the slightest outburst that wasn't pursued much shouldn't be seen as evidence, in my opinion. However I DO accept I was out of line and should have pursued it with HR, especially when during that time I was on so many copious drugs that I wasn't even allowed to go to the gym for a set period of time due to the dizziness I was feeling and the drowsiness (prazosin).
Overall regarding the concern about a recurring pattern of appeals. I acknowledge that there has been a pattern of outbursts followed by appeals, and I understand why that undermines confidence in assurance that things will improve. That criticism is totally fair. Where I failed previously was in not clearly identifying concrete steps that would prevent recurrence, instead relying too heavily on context and explanations.
What would be different going forward, if and when I return, is not simply “trying harder to be good”, but implementing strict boundaries for myself:
- I would avoid threads and topics that have repeatedly triggered loss of composure, regardless of personal investment for an extended period of time. Such as HST.
- I would disengage immediately from discussions once I notice emotional escalation.
If these measures were to fail, I fully accept that further restrictions and bans would be justified.
I am not asking for special treatment. I understand the need to prioritize the broader community and to avoid setting precedents that weaken moderation standards. My intention here is only to demonstrate that I recognize where my previous appeals fell short and that I take the concerns raised seriously.
Thank you for reading, and for the patience that you guys have already shown."
I would personally much prefer if we reduce his ban to at most 1 month or so.
