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Introduction
Hello, this may come as a shock to a lot of you, but it may come as an even bigger shock to those closest to me. I'd first and foremost like to apologise to the following users.
Dinozxd: I'm sorry, I manipulated you and lied to you, I deeply regret it. My greatest lie with you was manipulating you into getting cloudyagami banned. Cloudyagami was incompetent, I figured, no, I knew that everyone thought he was vapourrrrr, so when he made a sock on the forums. I classified him as a threat and made sure he got banned without Ant getting an IP check on vapourrrrr and cloud, as I knew that'd lead back to me, vzearr. So I lied to you, tricked you, making extraordinary claims so you didn't think I was vzearr but thought I was benefiting Tokyo Revengers by getting him banned, hell, I lied to you tens of times. You're my best friend on the wiki and on discord, and I hope we can stay that. Best friends.
Antvasima: I didn't lie to you as much as the others, other than, of course, this, I was vulnerable with you in texts, and I truly, truly, appreciate everything you've done for me. I really thought of you as my friend, a person I could rely on, the one person who I could talk to about my mental illnesses. Thank you so much, for everything. I hope you can add me on discord, but, I understand what you must think of me.
Reiner.
GarrixianXD.
Catzlaflame.
Twilight.
Mahek.
CurrySenpai
And many, many, many more. I'm sorry. I think of you as my friends. Although, It's all plagued by a facade.
Dinozxd: I'm sorry, I manipulated you and lied to you, I deeply regret it. My greatest lie with you was manipulating you into getting cloudyagami banned. Cloudyagami was incompetent, I figured, no, I knew that everyone thought he was vapourrrrr, so when he made a sock on the forums. I classified him as a threat and made sure he got banned without Ant getting an IP check on vapourrrrr and cloud, as I knew that'd lead back to me, vzearr. So I lied to you, tricked you, making extraordinary claims so you didn't think I was vzearr but thought I was benefiting Tokyo Revengers by getting him banned, hell, I lied to you tens of times. You're my best friend on the wiki and on discord, and I hope we can stay that. Best friends.
Antvasima: I didn't lie to you as much as the others, other than, of course, this, I was vulnerable with you in texts, and I truly, truly, appreciate everything you've done for me. I really thought of you as my friend, a person I could rely on, the one person who I could talk to about my mental illnesses. Thank you so much, for everything. I hope you can add me on discord, but, I understand what you must think of me.
Reiner.
GarrixianXD.
Catzlaflame.
Twilight.
Mahek.
CurrySenpai
And many, many, many more. I'm sorry. I think of you as my friends. Although, It's all plagued by a facade.
The Journey
I made my forum account on November 5th, 2023. About a year and a half ago. I knew initially, I had to show myself to be a promising calc group member as that was my goal, however, I knew to get to that, I'd have to complete many calculations and show my competency in threads, slowly, I became a better calculator, slowly, I became better at debating, slowly, I became who I am today. I knew that becoming a content moderator had to be my first goal, as it would establish me as staff, and establish connections with others, so I racked up my edits, showed my promise and made friends with other content mods, which started off as complete lies, and manipulation, I didn't care about these people, my "friends". Until I did, they grew on me, we became friends. Eventually, I got the position, and I realised, it was simple, I got calc group and then thread mod, it was truly, easy, I had a more or less bumpy ride, with a ban being threatened during my first few months, but that was handled swiftly by Bambu. After that, I had a few small bumps, but I handled them swiftly, or, got lucky.
Vzearrs discord was created by one of my friends, dekusolos, I got it from him, making sure it was made months before my account was made, if people had asked, I would say my previous account was banned, but I knew it'd be unlikely for anyone to ask. My first, or, one of my first friends on discord was Curry senpai, I lied and deceived them, created a birthday that I used consistently (making myself past legal age) and devoted time to lie and become friends with you so I could make more connections, which, slowly happened. I'm sorry Curry.
I could go into many many more things. However, this thread would be too long.
I hope you guys can forgive me, initially, I knew this thread would come, I thought, I would play it off as if I didn't care, but in truth, I do, I care about the wiki, which is why I've devoted so much time to it, but recently I've been quite busy therefore maintaining a side hobby became harder and harder. I'd love to stay on the wiki, but the fact that I feel terrible for what I've done, made me realise, it's time I stop. Although I'd love to stay, I would only stay as myself, vapour, not some false facade created by me. The lies, the manipulation, it's all behind me, I can't go on doing it.
Vzearrs discord was created by one of my friends, dekusolos, I got it from him, making sure it was made months before my account was made, if people had asked, I would say my previous account was banned, but I knew it'd be unlikely for anyone to ask. My first, or, one of my first friends on discord was Curry senpai, I lied and deceived them, created a birthday that I used consistently (making myself past legal age) and devoted time to lie and become friends with you so I could make more connections, which, slowly happened. I'm sorry Curry.
I could go into many many more things. However, this thread would be too long.
I hope you guys can forgive me, initially, I knew this thread would come, I thought, I would play it off as if I didn't care, but in truth, I do, I care about the wiki, which is why I've devoted so much time to it, but recently I've been quite busy therefore maintaining a side hobby became harder and harder. I'd love to stay on the wiki, but the fact that I feel terrible for what I've done, made me realise, it's time I stop. Although I'd love to stay, I would only stay as myself, vapour, not some false facade created by me. The lies, the manipulation, it's all behind me, I can't go on doing it.
Conclusion
After this thread is released, I will be swiftly banned. I've already banned myself on the wiki. I hope you guy's can forgive me, I am, truthfully, sorry. I take accountability for everything.
Side note: Add my discord. Vapour5095, if you want to discuss anything or wanna yell at me lol.
Side note: Add my discord. Vapour5095, if you want to discuss anything or wanna yell at me lol.
Just know i'm hoping for your health and happiness)
