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I dunno where exactly to put this at, but yeah. As the title makes pretty clear, I am resigning from my position of discussion mod, and leaving the wiki in general for...I don't know.
It's not anything any one user has done. It's not any bad thread or bad decision or whatever that's the reason. It's a vast multitude of things that have dragged on and on on my mental state until I find myself tonight, exhausted and at my wit's end.
I...like responsibility. It makes me feel validated, and important. I like undertaking tasks that are important because of that. I like seeing those tasks to the end, because I am stubborn to a fault. I like helping friends, because I want people to be happy. But in all of that I feel like I've been ignoring myself and some other, far more pressing matters in my life. And it has cost me dearly already.
So tonight, as I find myself tired to the bone (pun intended), I am making a conscious choice. I am not going to comment here. I am not going to edit here. I am going to be completely and totally inactive. I am done...for now.
I also don't want anyone contacting me, anywhere. Because although I'll probably be pretty good at shutting it all off, even seeing one of the wonderful people here might convince me to come back sooner than what I neeed.
On that note, let me stress enough that this has nothing to do with any of you. At all. People are what I'm going to miss the most. Individuals, friends that brighten my day and soul, and make laugh and cry and love like I've never done before in my life.
To them I say, this is not the end. I will be back. I can assure all of you of that. But right now...it's been wonderful meeting you all.
Goodbye, all of you.
It's not anything any one user has done. It's not any bad thread or bad decision or whatever that's the reason. It's a vast multitude of things that have dragged on and on on my mental state until I find myself tonight, exhausted and at my wit's end.
I...like responsibility. It makes me feel validated, and important. I like undertaking tasks that are important because of that. I like seeing those tasks to the end, because I am stubborn to a fault. I like helping friends, because I want people to be happy. But in all of that I feel like I've been ignoring myself and some other, far more pressing matters in my life. And it has cost me dearly already.
So tonight, as I find myself tired to the bone (pun intended), I am making a conscious choice. I am not going to comment here. I am not going to edit here. I am going to be completely and totally inactive. I am done...for now.
I also don't want anyone contacting me, anywhere. Because although I'll probably be pretty good at shutting it all off, even seeing one of the wonderful people here might convince me to come back sooner than what I neeed.
On that note, let me stress enough that this has nothing to do with any of you. At all. People are what I'm going to miss the most. Individuals, friends that brighten my day and soul, and make laugh and cry and love like I've never done before in my life.
To them I say, this is not the end. I will be back. I can assure all of you of that. But right now...it's been wonderful meeting you all.
Goodbye, all of you.
